fool

So im somewhere I shouldn't be.
And am starting to come to the mature realization that its my fault. As much as I would love to call my best friend right now and cry, I know i put myself in this situation.
Im going to create a personal rehab.
Because i keep taking myself back to the start.
I am not going to allow myslef to be an after thought....if even that....to a life that once was shared. And now im merely a bystander , a bystander watching myself float and try...try to hard.