I miss summer!!!
The anticipation to the nice weather is so much funner then the anticipation to winter .....
less clothes.....
Wild nights..
waking up with wine next to the bed and happily drinking it in the morning
eating in the back yard
walking.....everywhere...

fruit! fresh local fruit
the beach
the love
the flowers

ahhhh the summer

also makes me miss an old friend...whom I have not been in contact due to a fight.

Maybe the winter will bring us back together,
Just in time for holidays, and Christmas cards and hot chocolate with baileys
I do miss you...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i_M5cNcRcMk

Sky blue gets dark enough
To see the colors of the city lights
A trail of ruby red and diamond white
Hits her like a sunrise

She comes and goes
And comes and goes
Like no one can

Tonight shes out to lose herself
And find a high on peachtree street
From mixed drinks to techno beats
Its always heavy into everything

She comes and goes
And comes and goes
Like no one can
She comes and goes
And no one knows
Shes slipping through my hands

Shes always buzzin just like
Neon, neon, neon, neon
Who knows how long, how long, how long
She can go before she burns away

I cant be her angel now
You know its not my place to hold her down
And its hard for me to take a stand
When I would take her anyway I can

She comes and she goes
Like no one can
She comes and she goes
Shes slipping through my hands

Shes always buzzin just like
Neon, neon, neon, neon
Who knows how long, how long, how long
She can go before she burns away (away)

She comes and she goes
Like no one can
She comes and she goes
Shes slippin through my hands

Shes always buzzin just like
Neon, neon, neon, neon
Who knows how long, how long, how long
She can go before she burns away

I am blessed and Thankful
Thinking positive and embracing the change to come

fool

So im somewhere I shouldn't be.
And am starting to come to the mature realization that its my fault. As much as I would love to call my best friend right now and cry, I know i put myself in this situation.
Im going to create a personal rehab.
Because i keep taking myself back to the start.
I am not going to allow myslef to be an after thought....if even that....to a life that once was shared. And now im merely a bystander , a bystander watching myself float and try...try to hard.

eeek

I feel like today is not enough
I feel like im needing more
Wanting more
im unsettled ......not unhappy...dont get me wrong
I need that life spark .....and today its a tad dull.
It could be the weather....Miss Sun ( yes i have personified the sun as a female) please come out..all the vitamin D i am taking isnt helping me out .
Make me feel alive....like dancing..and spinning and falling over dizzy.
Thats all I want...
oh and a gingerbread cookie.... but that i can get myself.

and because I know your reading...

I love you.

Spotted

"Spotted.....T talking to boy with longish hair and beard at Lobby"

Now now.....who knew my little life could be so interesting that one would have to immediately go home and PM people on there FB. If i had known i would have done something more scandalous then you know....chat to a friends bf.
It has been said..people who live in glass houses should not throw stones.....
Now yours......is far from glass....I would not know what to even call it. And the thing is ..I wouldn't...because in my tender early twenty's....I have realized your jealous. Jealous that little me could still be happy.
A word of advice....get a day job. Your night one wont hold up for too long.

XOXO.....the princess and the Pea